Day 17: "this is do or die / look a promise in the eye"

0:40
"This is do or die
Look a promise in the eye"

Yah, just listening to some "Redemption" by the band Write This Down, cause, yah know...

Ahem!

So, I fell back on my wordcount. Hard. Really hard. 5629 words behind, and only because I managed to write 468 in the past 40 minutes.

Aaaaand, I feel another cold coming on. Perfect. Just effin perfect.

Somehow, SOMEHOW, I will hit 50k.
Yah know, being busy has nothing to do with NaNo. Last year I had college, highschool, and really rough family issues, plus a job, and I finished the 50k goal in 16 days. SIXTEEN!
And now I have no job, no school, no family, and I can barely squeeze in one thousand words a day.
UGH!

*sigh*

So when I hit 50k, it's going to be a victory coupled with a miracle that had a baby with an answered prayer. Yah know? Cause now that I have no routine, motivation, or purpose, the depression and melancholy and exhaustion is hitting me full force. And it sucks.
I need friends. Hobbies. A job... I need a job....

But "this is do or die" and I'm going to "look" my "promise in the eye" and I am going to make that 50k goal. Just one sloppy step at a time.


1:49
Well, Mania helped cheer me up. Now we're working on stuff (her math, me nano) while posting in between. It's very nice.
We're actually rping at Janlea. I haven't been there in a while. Reading over old posts and my character bios... brings back memories of all my plottings with them. Sad that the site slowed down...

2:07
Garnet's chapter is turning out really well. It's still early, but so far I really like it. He's slowly revealing stuff bit by bit, and I'm just adding it in, mostly for filler, but it gives an insight to him. He's probably the only character I've written about that has a well rounded history. Kah has a skeleton outline of his. Orec has none. Blah.
Elai and Falgarith have histories but no POV chapters, so I'll have to figure out how to get that in...
Nah, it'll get in there one way or another. Especially Elai. Cause she's like, the protagonist here.
Yah, spoiler, she's the protagonist *mutter mutter*