I been sleepin for 40 days and
I know Im sleeping cause this dream’s too amazin'
She got gold doorknobs where her eyes used to be
One turn and I learned what it really means to see
Ah, It’s the magical mystery kind
Ah, must be a lie
Bye bye to the too-good-to-be-true kind of love
Oh, I could die
Oh, now I can die
I've been sleepin for 60 days and
Nobody better pinch me
B***h I swear I’ll go crazy
She got jumper cable lips
She got sunset on her breath now
I inhaled just a little bit
Now I got no fear of death now
Ah, It’s the magical mystery kind
Ah, must be a lie
Bye bye to the too good to be true kind of love
Oh, I could die
Oh, now I can die
SHE GOT JUMPER CABLE LIPS
SHE GOT SUNSET ON HER BREATH NOW
I INHALED JUST A LITTLE BIT
NOW I GOT NO FEAR OF DEATH NOW
Those four lines were graffitied on the side of our lighthouse and they have been haunting me ever since. I finally googled the words a few weeks ago and came across the song. Though I think the song sounds awful and the rest of the lyrics are 'meh', it's those four lines that I always return to.
Back in the day when I took that photo, it was during that time in my life when things were way out of balance for me. I was hanging onto my life by a rapidly fraying thread. My world had crumbled, my family had fallen apart, my friends were dead to me, and everyone around me (including my parents) looked at me for the answers. So I turned to the one thing that could get me out of my house, away from my life, and return me to something of sanity: photography.
Most people think Wisconsin is flatlands and cows, but you would be impressed at how beautiful it really is. Through my photography, I was taken to places I never really bothered exploring or looking at, and through it all, I learned of the beauty my city had to offer. My favorite of locations quickly became the gorgeous Lake Michigan.
The lighthouse in particular became a focus for me. I absolutley adore lighthouses. Perhaps because at the time, I was a lighthouse myself.
The lighthouse warns boats. It keeps them from dashing to pieces on the rocks and guides them safely to harbor. But this lighthouse is empty, unmanned, and just flashes its lights on a timed device.
So was I, a lighthouse. Alone, a shell, empty and hollow inside, guiding others here and there without ever getting the help that I myself needed. It's been three years. Still, no help has come.
But the words on the lighthouse... Imagine standing out there on the platform, nothing around you but cold, dark waves, the roar of the waters, and the rocks below. But you see those words, and suddenly, you aren't afraid anymore.
I wanted to be that girl, that girl who could electrify, whose very breath or words or spirit could make fearless souls out of everybody.
I think that was where I decided I wasn't going to be this scared little kid always running from her problems. I was still the lonely lighthouse, but now I was going to weather the storms and do my duty with every piece of me still standing. Just as those words are graffitied on the side, so they are tattooed in my heart.
I have no fear of death now.
No fear of anything at all.
Most people think Wisconsin is flatlands and cows, but you would be impressed at how beautiful it really is. Through my photography, I was taken to places I never really bothered exploring or looking at, and through it all, I learned of the beauty my city had to offer. My favorite of locations quickly became the gorgeous Lake Michigan.
The lighthouse in particular became a focus for me. I absolutley adore lighthouses. Perhaps because at the time, I was a lighthouse myself.
The lighthouse warns boats. It keeps them from dashing to pieces on the rocks and guides them safely to harbor. But this lighthouse is empty, unmanned, and just flashes its lights on a timed device.
So was I, a lighthouse. Alone, a shell, empty and hollow inside, guiding others here and there without ever getting the help that I myself needed. It's been three years. Still, no help has come.
But the words on the lighthouse... Imagine standing out there on the platform, nothing around you but cold, dark waves, the roar of the waters, and the rocks below. But you see those words, and suddenly, you aren't afraid anymore.
I wanted to be that girl, that girl who could electrify, whose very breath or words or spirit could make fearless souls out of everybody.
I think that was where I decided I wasn't going to be this scared little kid always running from her problems. I was still the lonely lighthouse, but now I was going to weather the storms and do my duty with every piece of me still standing. Just as those words are graffitied on the side, so they are tattooed in my heart.
I have no fear of death now.
No fear of anything at all.
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